All I can say about 2016 is wow. I’ve made so much progress, had some fall backs, made big changes, met new people, and I am beyond grateful for everything that has happened, good and bad, because it has helped make me the person I am today.
One of the most notable events that happened to me this year occurred in early June. I made the final step in my recovery journey. I officially ended my therapist and nutritionist appointments. After months of meeting weekly, we began to stretch my appointment to every other week and then monthly and then to as needed. Three years ago I could not imagine the point in recovery I am at right now, and it would not have been possible without all the constant love and encouragement from my support team.
For summer break, my family decided to take a vacation to Florida. We drove (which was the longest 20 hours of my life), visited Universal Studios, and went on a cruise to the Bahamas. This was the first real “test” against my eating disorder. I had no nutritionist to help me along the way, and I definitely hit some rough patches along the way. I didn’t let it tarnish my memories though. I had so much fun spending time with my family and I wouldn’t trade it for anything else in the world.
The beginning of summer I make one of the toughest decisions of my life. I’ve always been a gymnast and couldn’t imagine my life without it. There were days that I felt like quitting, but I always came back the next day. I even had the best competition season yet. I placed 1st at state and a close 2nd at regionals and felt unstoppable. However, my heart wasn’t in it anymore. It wasn’t something I planned to continue in college and I let my fears get the best of me. Although I could do almost every skill in my routine perfectly, I had mental blocks on every event whenever I even thought about upgrading to harder skills. I quit gymnastics and it was a long and hard recovery process for both me and my parents.
With so much free time I decided to look into getting a job. I had no luck though. I had my heart set on one job in particular, but I completely bombed the interview and that was the end of that. I applied to some other places that I genuinely had a passion for but didn’t have any luck there either. I did, however, get a hostess job at a fancy restaurant but I ended up declining. So for now I’m content with babysitting and tutoring.
I also started my junior year of high school back in August. Nothing too special to mention here. All I can say it that I can’t believe it’s already half way over! I can’t wait till senior year because then I’m just one step away from living that college life!
After months of not doing gymnastics I began to miss it. I decided to rejoin my high school’s gymnastics team. The first couple weeks were rough, but I knew I wasn’t going to be at the skill level I left off at. It took me a while to get back into the groove of things, but I eventually got there and have had a lot of fun so far. There is definitely less individual pressure and the season is short so it only requires a few months of total commitment. We are almost in post season and I can’t wait to see where our team will go. We have all worked so hard and I am hoping we will go far.
I can’t believe 2016 is coming to an end. It flew by, but I am ready to see where 2017 will take me.